Roller Coaster or Waves?

Ben has been decidedly undecided about a sibling. He is not interested in DH and I traveling anywhere without him. I think he'd be quite fine if a sibling could be gained while at Disney World. He actually asked on Sunday if we could order a sister online. I know. The Adoptive Mom in me physically blanched and cringed at that one. DH gently explained that siblings are not shoes - you can't order them online. Aside - I don't even order shoes online - they must be tried on in person, duh!

Last night was a good one. I have been trying to leave the subject alone for a while. After all, we are still waiting for God to show us the way we're going to go about this adoption now that He's given us the want. And, yes, I mean financially. One thing we learned with Ben is that you have to keep spending money once they arrive - that whole food, clothing, SHOES thing just does not let up.

Anyway, Ben looked at me in the car and said "you know, Mom, I have been thinking about names for the sister we're not going to be adopting". Yep, that's my boy. He's so torn.

I can't blame him. Three or maybe four one-week trips for Mom and Dad over a few months. Talk about hard.

So we're still working it out. My sweet DH (who I was convinced had put this adoption on the back burner) has been talking to his HR department about getting Adoption Benefits added to his company. He even contacted the Dave Thomas Foundation (on his own, no guidance from me). His company is based in a very benefit-heavy state. I think his medical insurance pays for like 9 IVF's completely. But no adoption assistance. So, we'll see how that goes.

Riding the wave because roller coasters make me heave.

Quick update

I just finished a post I began on Christmas Day. I was mentally venting and it still felt honest, so there it is.

I am sure if I still have any readers on this blog, they are surprised to hear me state out loud that we are seriously considering going back to Russia.

My Mom stated that I did not look excited. I said "we're a long way from getting excited". At least this time I know the hurdles. I am hopeful that I can be more efficient with the paperwork.

It's surprising to me that this feels so right. I will be very disappointed if we can't get our details worked out. Faith and hope. The cornerstones of adoption.