Freaking out...just a little

I started an update to my update a few weeks ago, but never finished it.

The good news:
1.  Our dossier was finished and overnighted out to our agency the night before we went on vacation.  While we were relaxing on the beach our agency consultant declared out package to be "perfect" and sent it to Bulgaria.  It has been translated and hopefully will be registered soon with the Ministry of Justice.  So, we wait now.  Oh, and of course our dossier was perfect.  Our pictures of us are really casual and I look like cat throw-up but who cares? It's not like I will be judged on my bad hair, dumpy posture and lack of makeup.
2.  We have found the right med and dosage for Ben.  He has had two excellent weeks at school.  I am asking the teachers for feedback and so far they have had good reports for me.  He says he feels focused and calm at school. 
3.  The guidance counselor at Ben's school, we'll call her "S", emailed me last weekend to let me know that all pertinent members of the student support team have read his eval report.  The teachers will read it next and then we'll get the 504 accommodations put in place.  It will take approximately 12 weeks to completely assess Ben to determine if he needs an IEP.  So it would not start before January.  Hold this thought for the "not so good news" section.
4.  Ben has two teachers - they are the only team teachers in 2nd grade at our school.  Both teachers have excellent reputations and lots of experience.  Ben's ELA teacher has sons - I think this certainly helps.

The not-so-good news that has me freaking out just a bit:
1.  If Ben's IEP goes into effect in January then we will only have four months to determine it's effectiveness. 
2.  The above matters because Georgia Senate Bill 10 says that if an IEP is deemed ineffective to address the child's disability, then tuition assistance is provided to the family to pay for private special school.  This amount used to be about 6K in assistance.  Starting this school year, it is the "amount that the public school would have received in state funds".  I do not know what this amount currently is, but I am thinking it's less. 
3.  The two above issues only matter if we decide that public school is not able to help his dyslexia enough to bring him to grade level and keep his confidence intact.  There are two schools near us who specialize in teaching Dyslexic students.  They average $20K/year.  Ouch. Freaking out.
4.  I have joined a Bulgaria Adoption Facebook group.  Most of the waiting parents have been matched with children either through rainbowkids or reece'srainbow websites.  Intellectually, I understand that this means they've matched with severe special needs kids.  However, emotionally, I freak out just a bit when I see a picture of a child and his new parents.  The child is 8 years old.  And he weighs 18 pounds.   I read the parents' blog about the orphanage where their child has been since birth.  The story sounds like the infamous Romanian orphanages of the early 90's.  Horrifying.  I have to try to put it aside and focus on knowing what we can handle. 

Focus Ann.  Not freakout.  My new mantra.